March 9
It's ironic that every time something good is going to happen, we need to go through a challenge first.
We had decided to put our house on the market.
The time was right to get the best asking price and it was now or never.
I had been excited about the prospect of finding a house on a quieter street with actual parking and maybe a few trees.
Yet I was sad because I have really grown so attached to this house and the memories we created here.
I can still see the height marker we made for all the kids on the edge of the closet door in our bedroom.
It goes back almost eight years and the kids have done a lot of growing here since then!
Mel took a picture of it for me so I would have something to remember it by, in case my memory ever failed me! But you how we obnoxious moms are! I asked my hubby if we could take it with us! Well it was worth asking!
Anyway, the hardest thing was that since the market is great for selling, it isn't so great for buying, so we will need to lease a house for a while until we find something to accommodate our family and our wallet.
The worse part of all, which has the kids and me a mess, is that we have to find a new home for Sadie our dog.
She has grown so big and unfortunately due to severe personality issues that she was born with she was not good around too many strangers.
I also was informed by the real estate lady that they would only allow us a small dog that weighed less than twenty pounds.
Sadie had not weighted that since she was three months old!
I had found an animal farm that would take her but it still broke my heart to give her away as she is part of my family.
I guess we always need to really be careful what we ask for as we might actually get it!
But by the same token I guess we need to be very specific as well, if we are not, we get the good with the bad and sad!
When I dropped her off the attendant was amazed at how gentle she was with me as she licked peanut butter off my fingers.
He assured me that she would be better off and I half smiled even though I really didn't believe him.
I tried not to cry but I couldn't help it.
I held it in as long as I could, said my good-byes and got into my car with my husband.
Then the dam broke and I was so hysterical I think my hubby thought I was going to give myself an asthma attack.
I never thought I could love an animal so much!
I knew that this was the right move for our family to be in a safe neighborhood and better home, but it still didn't make it any easier.
I guess that is why some people will daydream about moving on but never do out of fear.
I do not know where we are going to wind up but I have to believe that where ever it is it will be a wonderful growing experience for our family.
I have to believe this otherwise losing Sadie would never have been worth the experience!
Even though I knew it was going to be great that didn't mean that there wouldn't be a tiny piece of my heart that will always belong to Sadie.
That does it, no matter what; I am never going to fall in love with another stupid dog ever again!
